Regrets

Things have been happening so fast for me I can't keep up. I've always been a busy person but lately I am so busy I can't keep still. I have so much work to do. I've started to regret that I didn't get a chance to go to certain things like the Harlem Book Festival. I've read so many things about how great it was. Honestly I feel a little left out. I watched some of it on television but I didn't see the main parts with the authors. I've never been comfortable around so many people, never will be but for some reason I feel left out I didn't go. I felt the same way about the BEA until I was reassured that I was working hard already doing the best for my work, promoting it, etc. I'm the kind of person who likes to work hard on my end and always be prepared. It's just that every time I turn around there is something going on I wasn't prepared for. I focus on writing so sometimes these events pass me by. Not that I was prepared to go anyway. I have enough to worry about lately that I haven't had time to break away. Hopefully next year or season I will be more prepared and at a better place with my career. Surely things won't be up in the air like they were this year. We'll see what the next year has in store.