Moving " Backward " Towards My Indian Relatives

I'm blogging a lot today because I've taken a break from writing today. I usually write nonstop but I think I deserve a break from Jessica and the novel I'm writing. Oh I don't know, I may write on the novel a little tonight. I'm proud I'm challenging myself to write a Mafia story. I may be no Mario Puzo but I've never been one to walk away from a challenge. Anyway, I am moving forward in my career but I find that I cannot move forward in my family history until I've accomplished something I've wanted to for the last three years: the family tree.

I am in the process of breaking down my mother's side of the family to find my Indian ancestors. I have a theory: they were one of many tribes to settle in Texas decades ago, (laughing). I don't know if that truly narrows things down but I will try. My aunt has been doing well searching our family history but she's mainly learning about people we already know. I want to go beyond that to find my Indian relatives and to see if that part of my family is still around. Well I know they are around in some way but I need to find out where. I have been glowing constantly since realizing the richness of my family history. So many differences have been combined to form a magnificent breed of people. Okay, I may be getting dramatic (laughing). Heck I just want to know about that part of my life. I know of my Indian great aunt or Indian great aunts but I want to know my Indian cousins, uncles, aunts, etc. I want to know the Indian relatives that are close to my age and submerge myself in that part of my culture. What kind of Indians are they? What kind would I be? What tribe did they come from? What are their rituals today? Are they modernized or traditionalized Indians? Well...that's what I hope to find out.

How can I move forward if I don't know where I'm coming from? It's funny how we think we know everything about our lives and some of us have no idea what we're connected to, who we came from centuries ago or who we're related to now. This has been a silent dream for me. Hopefully one day I can conquer knowing each and every person in my family who died before me. And if not well...I won't hold my breath.